I believe in destiny. And fate, which makes me wonder about my present situations in life. Life may not be the greatest, but I tell myself and I know “IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE”.
I look at people in other countries; whom, if they were in my present state of life, would be dead. I don’t wonder about “WHY” anymore.
Sometimes, there aren’t any answers. It is what it is. No why’s, it just is.
If you obsess on answers to why you are physically and mentally ill, it will send you out of your mind. And the whole point is to be stable.
I don’t believe in the term ‘recovery’ when applied to mental health. Because you never recover from some illnesses, they can go into states of remission. But you have always be diligent about triggers and over doing things.
So it’s just a quest for stability. In my eyes.
There are people who have gone thru stages of depression and have reached recovery.
But for the BiPolar and Schizophrenic and Schizoaffective etc.; these things never go away. And that is the reason why I believe in taking meds diligently and keeping up with therapy to help support the medication. Like a one, two punch.
There are millions of people who suffer daily. And they suffer in silence, due to fear and stigma and family influences. And that saddens me. Because you are not alone, not by any means. And that’s something to remember.