Sometimes I wonder how long this ‘good’ feeling is gonna last. I feel stable. And I’m scared it will be gone one morning like it has so many times in the past.
But I can’t think that way, I have to just keep moving forwards. And make the most of what I have now.
So much of me want to just revert like a turtle and go back into my shell.
But the sun feels good. Although a storm is coming (literally). The snow will melt, the skies will clear and the sun will come back again. So why not enjoy it for now.
Taking a slight break from writing. Did some searching of where I am in my present writing abilities and where I want to be in the future.
Having some feelings of doubt and low self-esteem. Which are hard for a writer.
I know that going to the conference will improve my writing. I’m not jumping into that pool without the right tools.
You know how your mind creates ENORMOUS POSSIBILITIES. While you dread that first rejection. But I know I have to put myself out there if I’m gonna get the word out about STIGMA. And what it feels like to live with a mental illness.
I need to make my characters into everyday people in order to reduce the fear and stereotypes of mental illness. I can’t and am not doing this alone. There’s a huge social media movement out there, and I just want to be a part of it.
But I also want to be that turtle.