It’s strange how you can have a down time. When the depression isn’t there and the mania is at bay. You know that somewhere in the back of your mind, you’re waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I’m waiting for another flare up. Which will trigger some anxiety and that’s always fun.
The ‘growth’ on my pituitary gland caused a depression wave from hell.
I wish I could just enjoy what I have now. Live ‘in’ the moment as they tell you. But is that lying to yourself?
I have to always be on my toes for triggers and symptom and all the other stuff. Leaves you on pins and needles at times.
But I’m trying to forget all that and just enjoy the peace. It’s not as easy as it sounds, I think it kinda leaves you blind sighted to things and you can’t see them coming until it’s too late.
But I don’t want to live on a tightrope.
So, for today; I will eat what’s left of my birthday cake. Read Locke & Key, the graphic novel. And try to get some rest. It’s finally getting cold around here.
I guess that’s living in the moment. Tomorrow can take care of tomorrow.
But I won’t be blind to my environment and what may effect me negatively.
Today is a simple blessing and I accept it without reserve.