I want a lot of things in life. Not gonna get them. I need a few things in life… Who knows. I’ve isolated myself again. Waiting and having changes in the wings. But as usual, they all depend upon what other people do or don’t do. I can’t live like this anymore.

Do I have a scholarship??? I don’t know. Will my friend let me see him in Boston??? I don’t know… Should I still continue to keep this exercise/eating plan thing going??? YES!!!

It’s the only thing in my life I can control. I fell off for two days, but I’m back…

I need a vacation from life….