When I can’t fully explain the ‘crap’ in my head. The confusion, the depression, the disturbed thoughts, the anxiety. When all this seems to happen at once, I say that I’m having difficulties that day.

Well, yesterday and today are and have been one of those days. Add abdominal pain from the surgery onto that and things aren’t doing too well.

I’m wondering if it’s hormonal.

What to do, what to do. Sleep is good. But when I wake up, I’m still here. Like I’m suppose to be someplace else… Duh.

It just all feels so surreal. Not a good sign.