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wordfishing… or umm

I hate when I go thru times that my mind goes completely blank and I can’t remember my own thoughts or points of conversation. I know the word, know what I was going to say etc. and POOF it’s gone. I feel so stupid when this happens.

Yesterday was the worst. I’d begin to talk and half way thru I would forget what I wanted to say. I kept calling people the wrong names. Went down the entire list of family names before I hit upon the right one. OMG, good thing I was home.

Had an iron infusion yesterday. Been running all week, trying to get ready for surgery on Monday. Period is late, and I’m hoping it doesn’t start until after surgery.

Friday is another infusion, Saturday I rest and Sunday I have to prep for surgery. Ducolax, Flagyl, Magnesium Citrate and more Ducolax. I’ll be in the bathroom all day and night. Gee, what fun. Maybe I’ll lose a pound or two.

I’m wondering after surgery, if my hormones will be lower and I will be further into perimenopause. Just wondering.

My sleeping is still off. I find that I have no patience etc. for anyone’s drama right now. My friend is going thru her usual dramafest and I just stepped back and ‘left the building’. I can’t help anyone with their problems now. I’ve got months of appointments ahead of me. And I’ve got to save my energy for that. Sorry, but the psychiatrist is OUT. Save your 5 cents.


3 thoughts on “wordfishing… or umm

  1. You take some time and worry about yourself for a while. there is no reason why people shouldn’t be able to understand that. I hope everything works out smoothly. Hey Ducolax is pretty good stuff. I take some about once a week to get rid of anything I have eaten that week thats trying to stick with me. I guess that is bad huh? Well. I pray that you will know that god is with you through this and all you have to do is call on Him. hugs


  2. hey, for what it’s worth, we’re all a little scrambled! I think we’re just such a complex species. Oh, and menopause is an insidious friggin nightmare! been in it for about 5 years now, the ‘pre-post’ thing was a cupcake! I draw blanks as frequently as I blink. I refer to it as my UBM’s (unexplainable blank moments) a real shit sandwich! Trust me when I say I can’t remember my own name sometimes!! Totally spaced out. I’m making light of it, but really it’s very frustrating to feel like your slipping, or not in control of an imbalance, so I understand that aspect! I’m sure your surgery will be fine, try not to worry. Guess I just wanted to say, I’m not bi polar, but I certainly empathise because really, we all have mind issues…it’s not easy ‘being’, period. Hey, did you ever see the movie: “what the bleep is down the rabit hole??” It’s sometimes titled, “what the bleep do we know anyhow??” Check it out, it’s about quantum physics. It’s interesting and for some reason when I saw it many years ago, I felt that some people may be so ‘in tune’ with it (without realizing) that it might offer some explaination to some mental health related topics. It’s filmed documentary style, but wow, it’s cool. check it. Goodluck tomorrow đŸ™‚


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