Really wanted some social time with my bff. I understand he was busy, very busy. But still. It was a let down and I just wanted to eat all the wrong stuff. Instead, I took an extra Xanax and passed out. Which was probably for the better.

I have no social life. By choice or by circumstance, i really can’t tell right now. But, I really wanted some time with someone I haven’t seen in 3 years. Why do I always have to go out to NY. Why do I always have to make the request and be the understanding one. I’m tired of it. For once, I would like to come first in something in my life.

I just feel so worthless right now. Just useless.