My anxieties are SUPER high today. So many things up in the air and things I have to do this week. One is major and the other involves networking, something I hate. I’m gonna take my Xanax with me and hope for the best. I hate social situations. They take so much out of me. I’m exhausted afterwards.

But, I promised I would do it and I kinda want to do this for her. Ugh. I hate my social anxiety. Doing a lot of future thinking. Have to stop it and just RELAX.

Have taken 2 baths so far. Probably headed for my 3rd in a minute. Gonna get my uncle to walk the dog. I just can’t do it right now. Too upset. Too stressed out over what I have to do Weds. Wondering if I’m physically able.