For some reason I’m up. Good or bad, I don’t know. The year ends soon and I’m gonna try and be social, I hope it works. I’ve just got to prepare with Xanax. I can feel the anxiety in my back all the time. It’s under my skin. Took three baths just to ease myself. It gets harder as the day gets later.

Really wish I could just relax. Mind wise, the deplin is working. Thank god for that. Now if the anxiety would just ease up a bit. I’d be better.

I should be sleep. A lot to do tomorrow.