My head is a little better. I know I need the full dosage, but have to do with what I’ve got for four more weeks. I can get some samples in two weeks, which will help.

This is not a way to live. It’s hard to write. Mind not clear. So tired.

Broke down and took the other half. Need at least one day of relief.

Here comes the paranoia. Everything is against me. The bank I use was on fire, so I have to wait til January before it opens back up. My knees are stiffer than ever, even if I exercise. This month is taking for ever to be over and I want all this bullshit to stop NOW.