head is so messed up. things are scrambled and mind hurts. not sure why or what is going on, its just a mess. I just wish things felt normal. gonna have to shut it down. go to bed. these are the only things that help.

Will never understand what and why my mind goes thru these things. The heaviness and pressure and the weirdness of the whole confusion symptom of this illness. When this happens, there is not much else I can do but try and clear my mind.

These are the times I wish the world would stop. I just need things to stop. That way i could breath long enough so I wont have to think about all the problems, worries, inadequacies and frustration that runs thru my mind.

Gonna get some water and take a bath. Hopefully, that will help.